31st May .2022
I had already created a mental draft "nobody will wish me on my birthday" and that I did not make in a bitter note . I thought like that because I am observing that for past few years . I was the one to remember everyone's birthday and it was just not like that in my case . Obviously I am referring to my friend circle , not my family. I am lucky to have a caring family (on my maternal side ). I trained my emotions that nobody told me to remember their birthdays ,so they actually are not bound to bear the burden of my expectations.Also , a friend whom I thought to be the best one , who actually wrote hearty wishes for me on her status ,actually turned out to be a very toxic one. I realized the trouble of inviting temporary personalities into life. I grew cautious , wary of friendship and obviously birthday wishes.
Just because people don't remember my birthday don't mean they are mean ,right? Everybody is going through so many things .Good God ,help all of us.I am just happy with the healthy equation we share.
11:59 PM ,31st May ,2022
I was not looking at my phone screen .I was not waiting for messages . I was not expecting anything. Everybody is going through lots of trouble .Who am I? Sushmita Sen? Irrfan Khan ? trending Vicky Kaushal? Shah Rukh Khan deserves a birthday like that, glorified name on fountains of colours and glory .
12:00 A.M .1st June,2022
I was preoccupied with some mathematics problem set ,I suppose? I don't remember. In fact , I didn't even know it was 12:00 A.M.
12:13 A.M. 1st June, 2022
"Hey ,you asleep already ?"
"It's your birthday , and you are asleep!?..heyy!!"
My best friend , my soul sister .She goes through so many things .She is going through a lot actually.
My inbox started popping with messages , hearty wishes , pompous statuses .
Since Morning ...
Wishes ,more wishes and more wishes from my sweet sisters. Really deep messages from the bottom of heart , wishes with sincerity . All of them had a common message "you are sweet ".This surprised me actually. Porcupine is sweet too ,they come with a lot of spikes.😝 Actually , "sweet but psycho" is the theme song of my life. You guys are sweet .
Should I take my family members and maternal side relatives into account? It's pretty expected from them ,still ,maybe I should. I should be grateful I have an extremely loving family and relatives from my maternal side. Then I must mention about the cute decorative message from Bhai (distance doesn't matter when it comes to human bonds ,proved by him ,time and again )apart from his cheerful phone call . I shall miss my Kutidada 's presence today. But it's good I miss him . It's good he is pursuing his dream course in dreamy Delhi. It's just that Mithai and Moshai in a family gathering with no Kutidada is difficult to digest.
This reminded me , I have to clean my room guys. I am left with a few hours , before my supportive family members come to my house. Bye bye.
Once again, thank all of you for your warmth . It's my twentieth birthday and I must say , I feel this decade started with a really good note ,because of you sweet people. I am just curious whether this universe will really conspire to help me achieve my dream life .Maybe , it will .
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